I think it’s important that everyone try to find their own voice in life. It’s one of the many things that make up who we are vs who we are capable of being. That steps into the unknown that could change everything or nothing. And accepting that, regardless, you have grown in some way from the experience.  So that’s what I’m doing. Since I finally found my voice, I may as well share it.

 

I’m no one special. I come from a tragic background (the same as everyone else) and have spent the better part of my life (so far) angry. It wasn’t that I was angry because of the situations that I was born into or the people who may or may not have affected that situation. I was just. Angry. I had all of this pent up emotion and anger, I had no funnel. Just distractions. And as I grew the weight that I felt from the emotions that I had ignored, did as well. It was like this indescribable dark cloud over my head. 

 

I had been taught at such a young age that things like showing emotion as a man was something to look down upon. I was emotional. We all are, that’s just human. So we’ve accidentally trapped ourselves in this perpetual state of ignorance that is passed around between families, friends, mentors, students, etc. It’s a vicious cycle that I became a victim of. Holding my emotions in, which stirred and brewed things like “insecurity, depression, anxiety.” I was drowning for a long time. But thanks to my fiance I have now fully understood the concept of happiness & Peace. 

 

How have I achieved it? I’m happy to explain, but it is a long journey. And in no way a complicated one. I plan to continue to write/ talk about it, because I believe everyone deserves internal peace, even if they disagree. It all just starts with one thing. 

 

Acknowledging you want more for yourself.

 

I look forward to continuing to journal and post my thoughts (even if it is to just myself). I'm Connor. The King who wants to answer everyone’s questions. I'd like to be the one to guide you towards genuine happiness.